last day in Brussels

tonight at 23:oo the eurolines bus will take me away from brussels to berlin. yeah, at last? well, actually it is a little sad. i met some people in the last two days, which made me think, i could spend a bit longer time, there are so many interesting people around. and berlin and everything which is awaiting me is far from being quiet and peaceful. it will be emotional, seeing my family in about 2 weeks. i bought the ticket by the way, and if you are lucky to be still young and 24 you can get the ticket (Mos-Tas-Berlin) for only 465,07 €. then all my visions about my border research..., this is going to gtake quite a lot of time, energy and heat-resistance. for tomorrow, in berlin, i have millions of things to do. i hope i will be fit enough for that.
well, yeah, have to save documents on a CD now, and go packing. and people who know me very well, they know that i usually carry stones, kilogrammes of books and reading material. i cant help it. i did get rid of about 25% of things. but i am in the process of thesis writing, i need my readers.

okay, i stop now, and start getting ready to leave this, now sunny city.

need advice

I have to start writing my thesis, i have piles of things to read, and i have a long list of things to be found and read; and something inside me and outside says i have to start writing this bloody thesis, and stop speculating too much. but HOW? does anyone know? people, who have experienced writing, can you please give some advice? i badly need it.

going mad in brussels

i dont know what to do with my frustration.
there are many things i dont like about brussels. but hallo, i was trying to like it. i was trying not to blame every shit on this city, but sometimes i just want to let my frustration off something. sorry this is the time.
3 times have i been to ULB library here, each time i was almost exploding with anger and frustration. i wont tell you about previous times, this will just kill me.
this time, everything started at the tramstop. tram 94, the one i need, didnt show up, i had to wait 20 minutes, so i just took 92 to Louise hoping to get 94 from there, maybe this tram is too lazy to come to Congres. well, thank god it appeared after another 25 minutes of waiting. when i was at the library, and found one of the 3 books, someone in french declared something, but from the tone of the voice i could feel, that this is nothing nice like "nafisa here is your book feel free and study". it was 17:00, and the library is shut at this time. i hurried downstairs (there is the machine where u scan the books, just like in fulda)to borrow the ones i found. but, this machine is turned off at 16:30, and i have to go back tomorrow to take those books. isnt it amazing???!!! i just couldnt help looking aggressive at a nice smiling face of the gentleman. i forced myself to say thank you, and have something like a smile on my face. all i wanted to do is scream at his face, but damn it is not his fault, this weirdest library, i have every seen, shuts so early.
it is pouring now. enough summer folks!